Utensils Are Like Pants...

Who needs them? That's kind of what I was thinking when I mixed together some tomatoes and mozzarella yesterday. I felt like eating this whole dish... considering this was the only good thing about the day:

Trying to figure out this computer business.... off to brave the circus =(

The Whiter the Bread the Quicker You're Dead

That's what they say... and I know I need more fiber... so I made this:

Broccoli slaw salad with Thai peanut dressing. Yum.

Just thought I would share. Also, my laptop is trying to destroy my life and rob me of all my cash... so if I seem really unproductive and/or distant it's because I have not much contact with the the technological aspect of my life (which is a good portion of it) for the next few days until it gets fixed. This should make for an interesting presentation on Tuesday.

Never again will I let myself have such an epic, monumental "freak out" as I did last night. Never shedding another tear over a lifeless POS. Only robot tears from now on. Oh yeah, and I FUCKING HATE YOU DELL COMPUTER SYSTEMS!

Ok, moving forward. Going to finish my coursework on a high note... even if I have to do the brunt of it from Jerome (ironically on a Dell.)

Chpt. 11 Feminism/Postmodernism/Development

It struck me in the overview of this book that the main premise was "attempting a workable communication between Western theory and Third World practice." Hmmmmm well we'll see how that pans out with Rathgeber's writing:




The move to replace the word "women" with "gender" constituted the Women in Development (WID) approach led to the Gender and Development (GAD) approach.

An example of a policy can be found at the Australian Agency for International Development... obviously since 1997 this type of policy has undergone many changes, hence the turn toward the GAD approach. We can see this evidenced by NGOs such as the International Center for Research on Women.

Needless to say, this was a really boring read. I was hoping to gain a better perspective about the movements toward ACTION, but the chapter sort of lacked that emphasis. Anyway, here are a few pertinent concepts that I gathered:

projects undertaken from a GAD perspective will allow for more indigenous voices to be heard (p. 220)

the condition (practical gender interests) and position (strategic gender interests) of women (p. 206)

the situation of women is that of many power relations (p. 207)

gender and technology issues are the locus of many GAD opportunities (p. 216-217)

So, from a postmodern feminist perspective, why is this turn significant? Where is the "action" implicated?

Ok, gotta go. Can't wait to briefly address this Tuesday.

Oops I Forgot.... Everyone is Loco

I just stumbled back across this in my inbox... and thought I would share it now:


Subject: A dog's mind
From: tracku [email omitted to protect the "innocent"]
Sent: Saturday, January 02, 2010 6:53 PM
To:Jenny Anne Armentrout

So, I've finished my masters in communication studies. Defended my thesis fall semester. I'm cruising around, looking for erudite-sounding stuff to put in my statement of teaching philosophy (looking for comm studies jobs, of course), and DAMN! I really don't want to be sleep-shanked, so I am exercising considerable restraint on the plagiarism front, but...have I said this?...Damn! This has to be the single most creative (is that overstating?) title I've ever laughed over. And yes, it's a question that I see running through my dog's mind every time we go for a run.

I've never been to Bowling Green, but I once hitchhiked across (well, halfway across) the country and got a ride with a professor from Bowling Green U in a bright green Volkswagon beetle. He gave me a ride for, oh, probably two days, hundreds of miles, and a strange, fascinating elixer of conversation. Don't know his name or what he taught, but if you see a guy driving a bright green VW bug, please hug him, thank him for me, and then just walk away. It'll completely freak him out. Course, this was almost 30 years ago, so...

I am, of course, putting off this writing project, thus my pressing need to write to you right now - when I should be composing my own teaching philosophy rendition. But, seriously, after reading your title - the rest of it was pretty good, too, but that title! - how can I hope to compete? My only hope is that you're not competing with me for comm studies teaching jobs next fall...but you probably are. Oh well, I'm older and wiser, and I thought I was creativer than most, but - not to be redundant, but damn!

So, basically, I'm just writing to say I like your style, your spunk (I hate that word, but it "communicates"), your bullshittishness. If I were on the hiring committee with a choice between someone whose teaching philosophy was entitled "My Teaching Philosophy" versus "Should I eat that...?," you'd have the job and I wouldn't even have to read the rest of it! I realize that's your blog's name and not just your TP title, but you could apply it to just about anything. I'm thinking about lettering it onto my favorite t-shirt.

Wish me luck on my teaching-job search, if we're not competing for the same jobs. You'll have shinier letters in your honorific (mine is B.A.-M.A.-M.A, sounds like Banana or Obama, or maybe a combo), so we're probably going after different jobs (I just sent a cv to a junior college in Texas!), so it's safe to wish me luck.

Hope we can be long-distance correspondence-ers. :)

Seeya!
[Name omitted to protect the "innocent"]
University of Montana



So did you all read this? Seriously WTF? Next thing I know I'll be getting emails from Phil Coultrip begging for that laptop password! As long as I don't find anything more disgusting... or weird... or crazy amidst all my other messages. It's sort of like finding a pile of cat puke in the morning. Or this:

Nevertheless unsettling =(

Nothing Rhymes with February

I hate this month. I don't know if I mentioned that lately... but I'm trying to turn this frown upside down. I'm doing something a little insane to rail against the monotony. So here's my plan: I'm adhering to the Lenten tradition of giving up a part of my lifestyle (and then other things as long as it becomes a part of my routine.) No, I'm sure as hell not doing this for religious purposes, but it's always a good mechanism for roping myself into some illusion of "diligence" and a way to challenge myself. For the next 40 days I'm going to get in the zone of not ingesting any food after 7p.

That's it. I know, it doesn't seem like that big of a deal, but it is for me.

Already gave up cigarettes (and by the beginning of May I won't be able to smoke in MI at all.)

Hardly drink anymore.

Only eat.

So, I'll wrangle that in again for a while. NO SUSTENANCE AFTER 7P.

Ok, lot's of work to do. Just finished the presentation for the DESIRE Diversity workshop at Otterbein on Tues:

Desire Scholars Workshop Presentation

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On to more writing. Maybe I'll pinch out a stupid little "work of art" for my Stats class too. But I hate it. And I plan to watch this in a few minutes to try and defrag (don't ask):

I miss everyone a lot, but I'm going to murder this month and then be home by March 3rd. Ciao xo

"April in the D" 2010 Theme Song Contest

Every spring when the prime sports season kicks off in Detroit, FOX Sports hosts a song contest for the village idiots to offer their pathetic musical stylings for various promotional commercials. Seriously foolish attempts... even shittier than last year's Good Luck Joes song. Here are my picks (prepare to laugh your ass off):

Americans Are Assholes

I didn't just figure this out, but I thought I'd remind everyone. It's important that we dwell on this fact.

Scrumptious

This orgasmic panini was blessed by 8lb 6oz baby Jesus (hence the heavenly aura in the background.) It made for the best brunch ever. Mozzarella. Tomato. Peppercorn turkey. Spinach. Black Olive tapenade. Mayo. Sourdough.

Haven't smoked in 8 days. That is all.

I'M WONDERFUL!

One of the best scripts ever... skip to 3mins 45 secs:





Cindy Kenner: [interview with Roseanne] Hi. Is beef back?

Roseanne: Well, I just want to say that the only thing I don't like about fat is that it doesn't have any sugar in it.

Cindy Kenner: Okay! But, um, doesn't a fatty diet, I mean, won't it make you fat?

Roseanne: So... A lot of people are fat, you know. In fact, I think more American women look like me than you, you know. Yeah, but when you watch TV, there's like no fat people on there or anything, like, when I watch that show "Friends", you know, that has all those whiny girls that are nothing but hair and bones, you know, and like, I watch them and they're like drinking those triple expressos and stuff and I'm just like "Hey! Go for the muffins!"

Roseanne: [Cindy tries to pull the microphone away from Roseanne] It kinda bugs me, you know, because uh, you know, I feel like, hey, I - I eat the same amount of food that they eat, I just don't puke when I'm done.



BBBYYYAAAHH!
She knew what was going on even in 1996. Loves =)

"Life, After All, is Full of Turning Points"

Oh yes it is. Ahmed's argument in Queer Phenomenology (2006) is finally starting to sink in. Maybe I'll have it fully processed by Tuesday afternoon... but a few passages to ponder between now and then wouldn't hurt:

Ahmed begins by stating: "A key argument in this book is that the body gets directed in some ways more than others" p. 15

Following Butler and Althusser, Ahmed also alludes to "turning" as a crucial point in subject formation, whereas turning "takes the form of hearing oneself as the subject of an address... the 'force' of being given a name" (e.g. queer, black, fat, etc.) p. 15

So the underlying question is about which way a subject turns and why...

Ahmed's definition of phenomenology sort of addresses this underlying question ("often characterized as a 'turn toward' objects, which appear in their perceptual 'thereness' as objects given to consciousness." p. 25) She also states that "consciousness is intentional: it is directed toward something... consciousness is also embodied, sensitive, and situated" p. 27

We can also recall the difference between orient and orientate in terms of phenomenal space...

Orient "refers us not just to space or to directionality, but also takes us in a specific direction" p. 112

Orientate "refers both to the practices of finding one's way, by establishing one's direction (according to the axes of north, south, east, and west) and to the east itself as one direction privileged over others" p. 113

From my perspective, I see a parallel between Ahmed's position about the phenomenology of race (whereas the effects of racialization and the invention of race dictates "in" body shapes and what bodies "can do" p. 111-112) and the orientation of individuals of size... read on...

Similar to mixed-race categories and/or various sexual orientations, individuals of size continue to navigate the phenomenological world in terms of which direction to "turn." Weight discourses, through this lens, proliferate into a variety of indiviualized, ever-changing bodies that are always in between the popular headings that society places upon us. For example, I don't feel empowered by the term fat because I don't identify with that "badge of courage" prescribed by the fat acceptance community. That is only one facet of my orientation within my own personal discourse regarding size and shape.

I'm hoping I'm on the right track here with this stream-of-consciousness processing of the reading; but I'm sure this probably doesn't make the most sense to everyone. *shrugs* meh

Goodnight for now. When I figure out more of the reading, I'll post again.

Reflections on Elliot Chapt 10... and Katje's Truck-Smashing

As promised (though a bit late) I'm posting about the second half of the Elliot reading for Global Feminism here. There's several overlaps and intersections between my finishing this week's reading and the world beyond the classroom. I'll explain as I go.

From my reading in chpt 10 of the Elliot: The Land of Real Men and Real Women: Gender and EU Accession in Three Polish Weeklies (Graff, 2004) I found Graff's arguments about gender talk to be especially interesting (e.g. “gender blindness” “gender crisis” “return of the real man” “renegotiation of the sexual contract” “crisis of masculinity”, etc.) Below is a snippet from the chapter regarding the media's preoccupation with masculinity, feminity, and sexual orientation in conjunction with Poland's nationalistic discourse (p. 199).



Looking back at the reading, I see that Polityka, Newsweek, and Wprost produced distinct visions of gender within specific discourses on nation and state, focusing on heterosexuality, fertility, and tradition. We see with this specific example that cultures around the globe continue to communicate mixed messages about women’s changing positions in society, whereas there is a certain pride and/or shame toward histories and national identities that hedge(d) upon patriarchal.



The dialectical relationship of both genders within the power structure of the state (as Dr. Gajjala mentioned during class) relate to the heteronormative "natural order" that Graff continues to challenge (as well as the three publications.) This is sort of what I want to address in my own little realm of the earth and my naive perspective on women's empowerment.....

So, this will be a stretch, but come along with me in my scatter-brained thought process.....



My younger sister crashed her truck into two trees during our interesting discussion in class on Tuesday afternoon. It happened around 3:20p. Here's an idea of the damage (it's totalled):



Not knowing that she was serious when she texted me what had happened, I quickly called her back right after we let out (about an hour later.) For a moment everything stood still until she told me she was ok. Although she was jostled around quite a bit, there were no serious injuries (she was by herself.) The fear soon dissipated and I was able to concentrate on hearing about the vehicle damage and how she would tackle the new conundrum set before her: WHAT TO DO???

Almost instantly, Katje was forced to renegotiate her standing within a system that, similar to the traditional Polish discourses exemplified by the media in 2004-2005, would not necessarily empower her to decide what to do as an adult woman in a "free" country. It seems quite simple-minded and elitist for me to focus on this example when there are more immediate concerns (boohoo the American consumer driving her SUV has such a "problem" to contend with right?), but from my perspective, her identity only allows for a few options when contending with fixing her truck on her own. I'll explain this better.

As a single female, college graduate (who paid for her own education) living in a state with one of the highest unemployment rates in the nation, Katje is fortunate to be gainfully employed and driving the truck to start with. The loan she was paying back was of higher interest because of other credit issues she had incurred by taking out college loans. In the land of "the American dream", a college education is supposed to lead to a well-paying job, one where, if you total your truck, you can usually go and work everything out within a few days on your own, affording another vehicle to replace the one that was damaged (by way of the insurance that was required.) Yet, this is not necessarily the case for Katje. In this capitalisitc, patriarchal system, she may not have as many options due to her "decisions" about what to drive, where to work, what to study at the university, and how to afford this all on her own income (because a "modern" woman wouldn't be doing herself any service by depending on her father or another man to help in sustaining her.)

So what does she do now? Take out another loan to "get ahead?"

I don't know if any of this makes sense or not, but I thought at one point there was a connection between the reading and my Midwestern example....

And BTW Katje's a pretty decent driver in the snow. Maybe it was the fault of the vehicle manufacturer... or the road commission for not having funding to take better care of the ice on the country road... or the property owner who couldn't afford to maintain the trees near the road where she slid off.

I'm just glad she's alright... and that she can somehow get to work so she can pay all this money back to live in a flawed system where she may or may not be deemed "empowered."

Better Than Sex Chocolate Cake

Before there was Paula Deen there was Paula Jean (Lietzke Armentrout).... and that lady has always had a pretty big influence on my super-rich dietary decisions: Bacon. Butter. Bread. Cheese. Cakes. Cherries. Chicken......... Manicotti. Meatballs......... etc etc etc

So, thinking about that and the upcoming ridiculous holiday (Valentine's) I was fantasizing about one of her/my favorite desserts that I haven't eaten in well over 2 years. The irony involved with the title of the cake seems worthy of me making it. I also thought I would share the recipe with all ya'll. Sorry if I won't be able to give you a slice of the one I make on Feb. 14th!

Ingredients:

1 box Duncan Hines German (or dark) chocolate cake mix
1 can Eagle Brand sweetened condensed milk
1 jar (8 oz) Mrs. Richardson's hot fudge sauce
1 pkg (6 bars) Heath toffee bars, chopped
1/2 pint Cool Whip

Directions:
Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Grease and flour a 9 x 13 inch pan (don't use a Bundt pan or cupcake tin as it won't be as moist or delicious.)
Prepare cake mix as directed on box. Pour into prepared pan.
Continue baking until cake tester comes out clean, 32-37 minutes.
Immediately upon removing from oven, poke holes in top of cake with the handle of a wooden spoon or dowel.
Pour condensed milk over cake and into holes. Cool in fridge.
Top with the fudge sauce.
Frost with whipped topping.
Sprinkle toffee bits over top.
Return to fridge before serving.

ENJOY... and cry a little bit ;-)